Journal

For t he past couple of weeks Phil and I have been talking much about adoption. It wasn't completely out of the blue as this is something we had talked about before we got married. But for something we've both wanted, we realized we know next to nothing about the actual process. As it happened, a couple of my friends are at different stages in the adoption journey and I've been witnessing with great anticipation and excitement as they move through the steps in the process. We're not quite ready to adopt yet, so I was a bit hesitant starting the conversation with anyone, in case it was misunderstood. But this past week my curiosity got the better of me as I broached the topic cautiously with a friend after doing some preliminary internet research. Unfortunately what I found left me feeling rather distraught. It seemed like there were too many obstacles in the journey if we were to look at adoption in Australia, and as we're no longer residents of India, adoption in I...

Today is the day I become 30 years old; Celebrate 30 years of life on this planet. 30 years of laughter and joy; of exhilaration and promises; of adventures and journeys. 30 years of gut-wrenching pain, Of heartbreak and deep sorrow; Of immense grief and incredible bliss. 30 years of questioning and suffering, years of searching for truth and making peace with things that don't fit my plan. Of trying so hard to keep God at the center of it all and failing miserably every day. 30 years of Grace that was undeserved Of forgiveness and second chances. 30 years of life being so much more than I could have ever imagined; Life lived larger than I could have hoped for; of dreams that I didn't even know I had coming true, much to my surprise. 30 years of dreams that didn't come true leaving painful scars and reminders. 30 years of easy lessons learned; Of difficult lessons learned and of lessons that I'm still learning. 30 years of books read, and c...